As part of #Quest2015 (presented by Jeffrey Davis of Tracking Wonder), Jason Silva — best known as the “shots of awe” guy — offered this prompt: “In what ways might you artfully curate your life in 2015 to occasion serendipity, creativity and awe?
Ontological designing says: We design our world and the world designs us back.
What are the linguistic and creative choices you can make in 2015 that will in turn act back upon you and transform you?”
What follows is the essence of my journal entry as I reacted and then responded.
My first thought is: WTF! I can’t juggle all this stuff. Don’t you all know that I have a day job? Don’t you know that I have project deadlines and CD’s that need to be delivered? How do you think that I have time to break down big words and phrases like this into something that I can find inspiring?
My second thought is: “you all”… Um-hmm. I know what that means. Something in this prompt has re-ignited the victim mentality in me. OK. Let me take a look at that. “We design our world and the world designs us back.” If I personalize it, that phrase becomes I design my world and the world designs me back. The victim in me doesn’t want to hear that. He wants it all to be about “them” messing around with my world. But in reality, I get it. What I give out to the world comes back to me. Sometimes two and three-fold. If I continue to create this victim reactivity, the world will accept the invitation and essentially let me crush myself.
I am the curator of my life. Every day, every moment, I can choose to fill it with dread, dismay, and apathy. Or I turn my head and find the serendipity, creativity, and awe waiting there to be perceived by me. Even when the progress towards what I want seems like walking through molasses, I can choose the experience of deadened (and Dead End) inertia. Or I can dip my fingers in the sweetness, close my eyes, and hum with the delight of the moment.
My third thought is: most of my “linguistic … choices” happen on this blog. I had shifted from an online journal many years ago to alternating improvisational art (music and poetry) with posts that were designed to tie into some “vertical market” among my Twitter followers or a hashtag pulled out of the headlines. One symptom of this shift was to limit the use of first-person language that talks about my experience to second-person language. That shift was contrived because blog “experts” and advisers said that this use of you was a more engaging approach. I’ve had a sense all along that this is lying. I cannot know what you think, experience, or feel. I can tell you about me.
That will be one of my linguistic choices for 2015: to return to language that is personal, honest, and real. That is what I can know and share. And better still, that is how I can more effectively learn about me, engage honestly with you, and design my world in a way that invites transformation.